Past Tense, Present Tense and Future Tense

Love is no past tense, future tense but love is present tense.. Means i need to take action now??

I really uppset already.. Why i still can't fully collect my cong dong-ness? Even it's matter since from many months ago.. 2009 is end soon and we'll apart soon too.. I feel very sad about this..

As time goes by, we are more corcern about each other , share together about our problems, family, friends, study but not the relationship problem. He never tell me about his past especially his ex.. He never show what is his status now but i guess he didn't over her yet.. Because he still keeping many many stuffs about her.. As he never change it, i know that he still care about her.. Although they all didn't speak out but we can understand it, just don't wanna to mention only.

Even we are become close and closer but i can feel that we both felt weird when we both go hang out in two.. Friends told me that we look sweet like a couple when we are together but i don't think so.. In fact, we are speechless when no other friend between us, we js like stranger A meet with stranger B.. Why our relationship become like this? I also don't know.. As old people saying, people who in the matter can't look the matter clearly so sometime i also hope that somebody can tell me what is the truth.

I'm really confusing .. In last time, i hope 2009 can end up faster then i can escape from this messy, but now i'm regret because i want he always stay right beside me..

闹情绪的星期五

今天早上起身，没有课不用出门。 从抽屉里拿了零钱去洗衣服了，天气是晴朗的，我的心情是忧郁的。。 为什么呢？ 是因为从上个星期五忙到昨天的下午四点三十分交上报告二觉得疲惫吗？还是今天无所事事所以要闹情绪了？ 我也不懂。。 考试的日子越来越靠近了，也意识说就快结束了在北方大学的第五个学期。 再多一个学期就要毕业了。。当然，我就快要进去我人生里的第二所大学， 社会大学。。

昨晚，室友对我说我跟不一样的人说话会有不一样的方式。 是真的吗？她说我会特别温柔的跟他讲电话，就像情侣一样。。 会吗？ 怎么都不察觉呢？可能是有心想撮合我和他，所以最近都常常被他们拿来开玩笑，把我们当猴子耍。。但是我们都只有傻笑和装听不懂来带过， 一笑而过。。因为上课时间和赶工课的关系，我们联络的频率增加了， 互动也多了， 当然我们也跟要好了， 无意间也发现了我们都会撒娇了。 他们说是打情骂俏。。 哈哈。。

也许因为已经习惯了，所以每次出去都很顺其自然坐在前座位， 就好像是我的私家位。。这几个月来，我们多多少少都能感觉到像刚刚开始拍拖的小情侣的甜蜜，一起上课，一起做工课， 一起看戏吃饭逛街，每天都通话，传短讯，上线保持联络。。 我想着应该都是情侣之间会做的事吧，那我们到底算是什么关系呢？ 我们之间是否缺了开始就进入过程中呢？

曾经我认为“男朋友”与“女朋友”只是个称号，只要在一起开心就足够了。 但是， 现在我觉得少了个称号就会多了尴尬。当你为他付出的就不是理所当然了，只能解释说是顺便或是好心。。

到底我们还欠了些什么了呢？ 谁能告诉我？？

I need a DELETE button

Why god didn't give us a delete button when god create human? Within the delete button i can delete anything that i don't want to keep in my memories those i was regret to saw and heard..

When the first time i saw it, it's still acceptable because i may know why he did it, but when i saw it second time it really hurt me so much.. I feel that what i mean for him?? Is it too little not over you? I do regeret to found the truth and make myself so messy.. Even like this, i think he still EDITTING..

I really confused and don't know what should i do.. I hope i can photoshop our bad memories and just keep the keep the sweet one.. Can i do it? Answer is no, Mission Impossible.

Keep Holding On

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend,
I'll fight and defend

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on...
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

H1N1

A (H1N1) influence become more seriously, until today Malaysia is reported 1266 cases. UUM is closed from 27th July until 1 August 2009. Today, paper has reported that UPM is close for 1 week start from today.. USM too... Haiz..hopefully, This diseases can be controlable la.. If not, there are unimaginable.. GOD, PLEASE BLESS ALL THE PERSONS I LOVE..

好想你， 好想你， 好想你， 好想你。。。
好想告诉你：我真的好喜欢你。。
但是我不可以这样做！ 理由？ 还想不到一个100 分的理由。

真的想疯了， 连做梦都是你， 竟然梦见我鬼鬼祟祟地牵你的手，我的天啊， 我快要为你发疯了。。
神啊， 求求你带我离开这样的困境， 我不想为了他再一次打乱我的生活。。 我只想平平静静地过完这一年。。 也许，我会后悔。 但是当我认真的想过后， 事情真的可以向我想象中那么顺利吗？

我承认， 我们真的对对方有感觉， 我们都互相注意对方的行为， 关心对方。友人说这是暧昧的表现。 哈哈， 那如果我们其中一方先开口了就不再是暧昧了,而是谈恋爱了吗?

我一直对自己说不要让自己后悔, 不要让自己有机会说" 如果". . 很多事情是不能重来的, 失去了就没有了. 所以我一直犹豫着要不要向你告白,这是我第一次有很强烈的感觉,想向一个人说我喜欢你, 你喜欢我吗? 但是我害怕听到你的否定.. 我连你最坏的对白也想了, 可能你会说:i'm not ready yet, sorry.. or u'r not the gal i wan.. 很难想象如果我听到这些话的我会有怎样的表情,怎样的回应.. 所以我却步了而陷于着爱与不爱的边源..

其实, 我也不是不能没有你..只是有你在身边一切会更好.. 这个可以是个100 分的理由吗?

Bored Night..

i met u tonight after we were lost connect since a week ago. I deliberately not to meet u coz few of the reasons. One of the reasons is i dunno how to communicate with u since we were changed.No, It's should be u r changed. u hav ur another 1.. but i still at my side alone.. i can't treat u like last time and i felt u also have the same feeling alike me..we can't back to last time..

Faithfully, i miss u like crazy since we were apart. It's happen everyday, every minutes and everywhere..That feeling really killing me..

It should be known that we are impossible to become a couple coz u never ever change it..so sad..

I just like a fool coz waitting u to take action to me, it's really laughable and stupidity..

I know that it's hard to let you out of my mind but i must try my best to do it, at least i can over u one day...