男人女人

常常听见男人说：女人心海底针， 女人心情的变换就像换衣服一样快。 我想后者相当适合用在自己的角色。 昨天还在闷闷不乐就像阴天，今天突然放晴，哎，我也不懂。 可能是因为我是双子座吧？

一个人过的第五天，如以往地，一个人睡，一个人吃饭，一个人听歌，一个人看戏，一个人做功课，一个人呆在房间。。心情是晴天，没有烈日当空，也没有雷电交加。可能连续几天没睡好的关系吧，整个人好累了。真的好想放下手头上所有的事情，到一个没有人的海滩，躺在长凳上看着蓝蓝的天空，吹着轻轻地海风，好好地盖上眼皮，用心体会大自然的悠闲。

有时候我回想如果我是个男的，那有多好。为什么？男生可以做一些女生想做又不敢做的。但是我的想法被友人推翻了， 她说女生也有身为女生的特权，那是男生想要都没有的。 或许她说的未尝没有道理，但是我还是认为男生都是可以很潇洒地，果断地处理一些事情。身为女生的我想说，男生如果劈腿，最多就被嘲是花心，负心人等等的，但是如果是女生劈腿，事情就又不一样的说法了，女生会被判死刑或终生监邢。

男生口花花是有情趣，幽默感；女生口花花是水性杨花，到处留情。 男生告白失败还是感情告吹，下一个会更好；女生失恋，伤心绝食，要生要死，非君不嫁。

以前听过梅艳芳的《《下辈子别再做女人》》

女人　我亲爱的姐妹们 你经过千山万山之后　得到了怎样的男人辛苦了

女人　疗伤是你的本能 与其在回忆之中心疼　还不如早一些清除伤痕

下辈子别再做女人　我们这一生苦的很

别为了一个吻　你也肯　去爱上某一个负心人

下辈子别再做女人　快乐的时间少的很

在爱情中打滚　谁是你最后的爱人

像我这样的女生，只想做个普普通通，简简单单，有人疼爱的小女人。 我会都听他的，一切让他来做决定。但是，我还要等多久才可以当个小女人？

如果下辈子让你来选择，你想当男人还是女人呢？

司机与乘客

第四天，一个人过的星期一。 今天起身的时候还很有冲劲的对自己说，快乐是自己选择的，暂时不要再胡思乱想了。今天要为自己而过，刚开始还过的蛮不错的，都在专注做我的公主网站。不过，时间慢慢的过去，我又会因为寂寞又在想念他了。
想起他问我的，到底是什么意识呢？我想他不会这么花心思来考我吧？但是他一定不会懂他这么问会让我有很多想法。他的问题还在我的脑海打转，把我的心情搞砸了。

怪我太傻了，太优柔寡断，总是不能下决心。玩过好多次心理测验，都说是因为我太缺安全感而迟迟未能拥有另一半。试问，有那个女人想受伤害，不要对方是全心全意对自己的。我只是想上车前确定车子是要去我的目的地。 上错了两次车，我学会了要看清楚司机是对的人，因为已经害怕了，害怕当我很安心地等待开往目的地的途中，被赶下车。

在一个新环境，从新站起来是需要时间，我懂。当你等待下一辆车到前，你可能会遇见其他的轿车。在你还不清楚属于你的车子时，你可能会跟司机互动，如果互动时都没有明确的指示，那就可能会误导你上车。当你以为眼前的车子是可以让你前往目的地时候，司机迟迟都不开车，以为是司机还没填汽油还是引擎还没开动，所以车子还是原地不动。 没关系，你说你可以等，因为你以为反正都是会到目的地，迟到还是早到真的都没关系。

可悲的是，那都是你的想法，事情可能不像你想的这样。 因为可能司机还在等待遇见你之前，下车了的乘客，等待那位乘客会追上来，继续她的旅程。司机不确定那位乘客是否会回心转意，也不知道是应该把你请下车继续等待那位乘客，还是放弃等待的机会把车子开往下一站。

这时候的你应该怎么办呢？自行下车还是等司机请下车？

Light On Night..

Haiz.. Today is 3rd day i stay all alone in uni.. Except boring, i can't get another word to depict my current situation now.. what i did in this 3days? study, sleeping, listening and watching.. Since i'm lazy to go out buy food alone so i bought alot of bread and cup mee as my food.. Finally, i ate 2 roll gardenier bread and 3cup mee in this 3 days.. Shock?? Haha..i also feel unbelievable what i had did..

I never sleep alone in my hostel and i'm a mousy little women so i didn't swift off the light at night until the next morning.. Life without roommate is lonely and pity.. But think it in positive that i have a big bed which i can roll here and there as i like.. Wakaka..

Tomorrow is paper Animation II Exam.. Hopefully it won't be so tough for me..

2nd lonely day..

everyone is back to their hometown, except me.. And i'm so loneyly here.. All dairly activities have to do alone.. eat alone, watching movie alone, listening alone, buy food alone...ALL ALONE.. Life is so lonely without friends.

Wednesday we all went Hatyai have fun there but not really fun also because that day was a heavy raining day. So, we can't walk far for shopping and we just shop in 2 shopping complex.. That why we just spent a small amount of money there..

I knew he got a lot messy have to handle, but he still pretend show that he's ok and don't want to ruin our trip.. so pity on him de.. I saw he was sleeping in the van during back to uni. He must very tired already and he neeed to drive back to penang in next morning.

Although not many sweet memories we gain from Hatyai but at least he is stay with me the whole day.. and i'm appreciated it.

Next Tuesday only he will back to uni and i have to wait him back to me with patiently.. Since he is busy this few days, i can reach him frequently, scared disturb him. Haiz.. No msg, no call, no msn, no contact.. this is a bad habit because he is too stick with me when he is in uni and make me can't survive without him.. feel so lonely now.. and miss him so much..

I WAN MIRACLE!!

Finally, i didn't do it. There is wrong timing and wrong situation. We going outside take our breakfast in another hour.. Hopefully, a miracle is there.

HAVE A NICE DAY..

Safety or unsafety person??

This morning i go view my facebook and saw that 1 of the comments post by Hui Xiang. She stated that handsome guy is unsafety? Is't correct? Handsome guy is easy to attract by gals? Erm.. actually i also agree her point of view de.. So gal should not pick a handsome guy as boyfriend? Because the opportunity to get hurt can be minimize? No necessary.. Proper look guy will also hurt gal. If both type of guy will hurt gal, why don't i pick the first 1? Hihi..

How about gal? Pretty gal also easy to misuse their talent? Not misuse, it's multifunction. Most of the time, pretty gal is provided the good services compare with the ugly gal, especially the target is a guy.. Don't count the relationship, either is friends, colleagues or neighbours, if a pretty gal ask a guy do her a flavour, the probability is higher than the ugly gal..Do you agree with me? Even there may be have a argue, but i still believe that this is the truth since i grown up. Until now, i still believe it..

Few days ago, my sister called me and i told her my Dior foundation is "saw bottom" already. She laugh at me how thick i put it into my face everyday? Haha.. i also don't know.. But everytime i go outside sure i put it into my face and perfume is my second essential cosmetic product, because in my dictionary is stated that there is no ugly women only the lazy women. Some more make me up look pretty can have a good mo0d then why don't i keep this habit foverer.

I have check my horoscope today, almost is good predictions and ask my take action today.. But i still consider whether i should shout out or not.. Too messy..Grrr...

Happy Birthday, Chan Sze Yean. We having a celebration for her tonight, hopefully there is another sweet memory when we are together in UUM.

Past Tense, Present Tense and Future Tense

Love is no past tense, future tense but love is present tense.. Means i need to take action now??

I really uppset already.. Why i still can't fully collect my cong dong-ness? Even it's matter since from many months ago.. 2009 is end soon and we'll apart soon too.. I feel very sad about this..

As time goes by, we are more corcern about each other , share together about our problems, family, friends, study but not the relationship problem. He never tell me about his past especially his ex.. He never show what is his status now but i guess he didn't over her yet.. Because he still keeping many many stuffs about her.. As he never change it, i know that he still care about her.. Although they all didn't speak out but we can understand it, just don't wanna to mention only.

Even we are become close and closer but i can feel that we both felt weird when we both go hang out in two.. Friends told me that we look sweet like a couple when we are together but i don't think so.. In fact, we are speechless when no other friend between us, we js like stranger A meet with stranger B.. Why our relationship become like this? I also don't know.. As old people saying, people who in the matter can't look the matter clearly so sometime i also hope that somebody can tell me what is the truth.

I'm really confusing .. In last time, i hope 2009 can end up faster then i can escape from this messy, but now i'm regret because i want he always stay right beside me..