Light On Night..

Haiz.. Today is 3rd day i stay all alone in uni.. Except boring, i can't get another word to depict my current situation now.. what i did in this 3days? study, sleeping, listening and watching.. Since i'm lazy to go out buy food alone so i bought alot of bread and cup mee as my food.. Finally, i ate 2 roll gardenier bread and 3cup mee in this 3 days.. Shock?? Haha..i also feel unbelievable what i had did..

I never sleep alone in my hostel and i'm a mousy little women so i didn't swift off the light at night until the next morning.. Life without roommate is lonely and pity.. But think it in positive that i have a big bed which i can roll here and there as i like.. Wakaka..

Tomorrow is paper Animation II Exam.. Hopefully it won't be so tough for me..

2nd lonely day..

everyone is back to their hometown, except me.. And i'm so loneyly here.. All dairly activities have to do alone.. eat alone, watching movie alone, listening alone, buy food alone...ALL ALONE.. Life is so lonely without friends.

Wednesday we all went Hatyai have fun there but not really fun also because that day was a heavy raining day. So, we can't walk far for shopping and we just shop in 2 shopping complex.. That why we just spent a small amount of money there..

I knew he got a lot messy have to handle, but he still pretend show that he's ok and don't want to ruin our trip.. so pity on him de.. I saw he was sleeping in the van during back to uni. He must very tired already and he neeed to drive back to penang in next morning.

Although not many sweet memories we gain from Hatyai but at least he is stay with me the whole day.. and i'm appreciated it.

Next Tuesday only he will back to uni and i have to wait him back to me with patiently.. Since he is busy this few days, i can reach him frequently, scared disturb him. Haiz.. No msg, no call, no msn, no contact.. this is a bad habit because he is too stick with me when he is in uni and make me can't survive without him.. feel so lonely now.. and miss him so much..

I WAN MIRACLE!!

Finally, i didn't do it. There is wrong timing and wrong situation. We going outside take our breakfast in another hour.. Hopefully, a miracle is there.

HAVE A NICE DAY..

Safety or unsafety person??

This morning i go view my facebook and saw that 1 of the comments post by Hui Xiang. She stated that handsome guy is unsafety? Is't correct? Handsome guy is easy to attract by gals? Erm.. actually i also agree her point of view de.. So gal should not pick a handsome guy as boyfriend? Because the opportunity to get hurt can be minimize? No necessary.. Proper look guy will also hurt gal. If both type of guy will hurt gal, why don't i pick the first 1? Hihi..

How about gal? Pretty gal also easy to misuse their talent? Not misuse, it's multifunction. Most of the time, pretty gal is provided the good services compare with the ugly gal, especially the target is a guy.. Don't count the relationship, either is friends, colleagues or neighbours, if a pretty gal ask a guy do her a flavour, the probability is higher than the ugly gal..Do you agree with me? Even there may be have a argue, but i still believe that this is the truth since i grown up. Until now, i still believe it..

Few days ago, my sister called me and i told her my Dior foundation is "saw bottom" already. She laugh at me how thick i put it into my face everyday? Haha.. i also don't know.. But everytime i go outside sure i put it into my face and perfume is my second essential cosmetic product, because in my dictionary is stated that there is no ugly women only the lazy women. Some more make me up look pretty can have a good mo0d then why don't i keep this habit foverer.

I have check my horoscope today, almost is good predictions and ask my take action today.. But i still consider whether i should shout out or not.. Too messy..Grrr...

Happy Birthday, Chan Sze Yean. We having a celebration for her tonight, hopefully there is another sweet memory when we are together in UUM.

Past Tense, Present Tense and Future Tense

Love is no past tense, future tense but love is present tense.. Means i need to take action now??

I really uppset already.. Why i still can't fully collect my cong dong-ness? Even it's matter since from many months ago.. 2009 is end soon and we'll apart soon too.. I feel very sad about this..

As time goes by, we are more corcern about each other , share together about our problems, family, friends, study but not the relationship problem. He never tell me about his past especially his ex.. He never show what is his status now but i guess he didn't over her yet.. Because he still keeping many many stuffs about her.. As he never change it, i know that he still care about her.. Although they all didn't speak out but we can understand it, just don't wanna to mention only.

Even we are become close and closer but i can feel that we both felt weird when we both go hang out in two.. Friends told me that we look sweet like a couple when we are together but i don't think so.. In fact, we are speechless when no other friend between us, we js like stranger A meet with stranger B.. Why our relationship become like this? I also don't know.. As old people saying, people who in the matter can't look the matter clearly so sometime i also hope that somebody can tell me what is the truth.

I'm really confusing .. In last time, i hope 2009 can end up faster then i can escape from this messy, but now i'm regret because i want he always stay right beside me..

闹情绪的星期五

今天早上起身，没有课不用出门。 从抽屉里拿了零钱去洗衣服了，天气是晴朗的，我的心情是忧郁的。。 为什么呢？ 是因为从上个星期五忙到昨天的下午四点三十分交上报告二觉得疲惫吗？还是今天无所事事所以要闹情绪了？ 我也不懂。。 考试的日子越来越靠近了，也意识说就快结束了在北方大学的第五个学期。 再多一个学期就要毕业了。。当然，我就快要进去我人生里的第二所大学， 社会大学。。

昨晚，室友对我说我跟不一样的人说话会有不一样的方式。 是真的吗？她说我会特别温柔的跟他讲电话，就像情侣一样。。 会吗？ 怎么都不察觉呢？可能是有心想撮合我和他，所以最近都常常被他们拿来开玩笑，把我们当猴子耍。。但是我们都只有傻笑和装听不懂来带过， 一笑而过。。因为上课时间和赶工课的关系，我们联络的频率增加了， 互动也多了， 当然我们也跟要好了， 无意间也发现了我们都会撒娇了。 他们说是打情骂俏。。 哈哈。。

也许因为已经习惯了，所以每次出去都很顺其自然坐在前座位， 就好像是我的私家位。。这几个月来，我们多多少少都能感觉到像刚刚开始拍拖的小情侣的甜蜜，一起上课，一起做工课， 一起看戏吃饭逛街，每天都通话，传短讯，上线保持联络。。 我想着应该都是情侣之间会做的事吧，那我们到底算是什么关系呢？ 我们之间是否缺了开始就进入过程中呢？

曾经我认为“男朋友”与“女朋友”只是个称号，只要在一起开心就足够了。 但是， 现在我觉得少了个称号就会多了尴尬。当你为他付出的就不是理所当然了，只能解释说是顺便或是好心。。

到底我们还欠了些什么了呢？ 谁能告诉我？？

I need a DELETE button

Why god didn't give us a delete button when god create human? Within the delete button i can delete anything that i don't want to keep in my memories those i was regret to saw and heard..

When the first time i saw it, it's still acceptable because i may know why he did it, but when i saw it second time it really hurt me so much.. I feel that what i mean for him?? Is it too little not over you? I do regeret to found the truth and make myself so messy.. Even like this, i think he still EDITTING..

I really confused and don't know what should i do.. I hope i can photoshop our bad memories and just keep the keep the sweet one.. Can i do it? Answer is no, Mission Impossible.