the power of love..

Few days ago, I went my uncle’s house to visit my grandpa. My grandpa is aged 70 above, maybe just recover from sickness, he is very skinny and become older and weaker compare with last time I met him. Now, he can’t stand up or sit by himself anymore, every of his movement need help from others. He is use pamper like a baby now, everyday my uncle help him clean the body.
At this moment, I just remember that I had received an email from my friend about parent and kids. Inside the email stated when we was a baby, parent take care everything of kid. Parent wears the baby clothes, feed them milk, and teach them how to speak out the first word (mama or papa), how to walk and fastening their shoe string, how to comb their hair… After day by day, kids are grown up and parent get older. Their position is change and become opposite, parent just like go back to zero. They become blur and need help from other to do the daily activities. Sometime, they can’t hear what their children talk, they can’t see the thing clearly, they can’t walk fast, and they start crapping.. All of that may annoying but do you ever think, what your parent feel when you were a kid? They never blame and give up doing the best for you.
Beside the relationship between parent and kids, relationship between husband and wife also very touching if they love each other same like the starting. As I remember, grandma always blame grandpa because his unfaithfulness when grandpa was young. Grandpa and grandma always argue and never tolerance. But, this time is different, I saw grandma is very care grandpa. She tried to comfort grandpa to make him less worries about my youngest uncle.
Aren’t people will change their point of view when they are getting older? They will try to accept the imperfect of their partner which they refused in the past. Maybe I should think it in this way, when one is really love their partner, one will accept all the imperfect of their partner no matter what aged or what type of relationship.
For example, a girl is refused with the guy who has habit of smoke. But, she may slowly accept that habit after that guy became her boyfriend. Of course, sure the girl will complain the guy don’t ever smoke again. If the guy can’t take over his bad habit, the only way to meet the solution is girl has to accept it. This is very common happen between couples. If you can’t change it then you have to accept it to reach the peaceful, no matter what kind of problem. How acceptable of the case is depending on how one love their partner. If you love your partner more than your partner love you then automatic you will accept the worse that others think impossible to accept. You will get an excuse to persuade yourself to forgive your partner, even you know it is unforgiveness. So, I think that is true, THE POWER OF A RELATIONSHIP IS LIES WITH WHOEVER CARES LESS.

One's first love is always perfect until one meet one's second love..

One's first love is always perfect until one meet one's second love?? Do you think it's correct? erm.. i agree with this statement.. when i just break up with my ex, i can't stop thinking of him even can't get him out of my mind.. During that time i felt the time past like turtle, why the day so long and i was counted how many days i live without him.. now, when i recall all of this, i think i'm so fool on that time, all i did for him,he know nothing..

"I understood everything will past without notice as time goes by, but i just hope time can pass faster..", a nice quotation from a friend. At first, i think i can over him after a period but i'm wrong.. everyday all the flashback will appear in my mind, what he had promised me, what he did for me, all the memories came out automatically.. It's was appear anytime and anywhere.. I just can't help myself to escape from that messy until i met the second him..

Maybe we are always keep in touch, he make me feel that i'm not alone, there are still have someone care about me and i'm worth for someone.. And I realized that when he become a part of my life, the frequency of those flashback appear is reduced.. I stop crying for those promises and day by day i stop thinking of him as well.. is't because of the second him?? I think so..

In conclusion, the best method to cure break up case is invest in other relationship.. means falling in love with the second him.. Haha..

Love is everything it's cracked up to be…It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.

What you did for your lover? Erm.. after a few second i recall it, i got nothing special i did before.. As my personality, i'm a rational thinking girl, i won't do sometime without think twice expect those small small matters. In handle a relationship, i always make it carefully and try my best to minimize the hurt or mistakes that will be happen between me and my partner. So, i was always in my plan.. No matter what, when to have a date, where we gonna hang out, what we want to eat even what should i say when we are meet.. Or course, not everything is in my planning, sometime it's might be out of plan.. But, i really plan for everything.. Am i crazy or a mental problem girl? Be honestly, all i did is to assured we could stay together with peaceful.. But they never know it.

If i plan everything, means i never take any risk before?? I think i have choose a safe way to built up a relationship although it's failure in the end but i never argue with my ex, even once.. i also not sure it's good or no good.. It's good because we never hurt each other; it's no good because our time past like a linear, don't have any peak like other couples.. In fact, i prefer the second way to develop a relationship because i'm still believe that blame and argument will make a scar between a couple.

"Love is everything it's cracked up to be…It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.." this love quotation asking human for fighting, being brave and take risk in order to fall in love with someone you love.. May i follow it?? I admit that i'm a coward because i keep stay at the same place even i known i'm into him early..

No matter how i care about him, i still have to pretend i just treat him as a friend. I can't tell him how worries i am here,wishing to know everything and hoping everything is alright around him.. I can't do anyting unless waiting for him to contact me..

I can just waiting..

What does "boyfriend/girlfriend" actually means?

Few days ago, my friend ask me about how is my progress of mission.. Mission of collect my cong dong-ness.. I told her that i had give up to collect it because i know my cong dong can't work on what i want. Then she asked again, what type of relationship between i and Comic currently.. I answered her, we are good, take care each other and share together.. We just like a couple.. She is very umcomfortable with the word "couple".. Third question she asked, "why you said you both like a couple?" Then i try to depict the situation when we were hanging out and told her that we are keep contact everyday either sms, call or msn. We are always care each other, know what happen at the surrounding.. Beside than that, we always keep tease and joke too.. As time goes by, we become close and closer. That why i got the feeling like falling in love..

She persued me to tell Comic the truth again and i said actually i not need the name of "girlfriend or boyfriend". What i want is he care about me and always stand by me. I don't mind to do something for him without credit from him. I just want him feel comfortable and happy when we are together. She suddenly added, "How about the 'body touch'? You can do something normally a couple will do even you both not a couple yet?" I answerd her, no hand touching, no hugging, and no kissing lo.. Wakaka..

Actually, not only we can't do the 'body touch' but some words we can't speak it out too.. Just like "I miss you", even i'm missing him so much but i still have to keep it to myself.. Without the name, we felt embrassing when other friends are joke at us and we just pretend didn't heard or not understand. I understand that i can't resist from him although he is confusing me. I just can't help myself and i can't get him out of my mind too. So, i have to think twice my previous decision, whether i'm mistake. Is't i surpose to tell him the truth?

As the time is pass day by day, the day he gonna far away from me is coming around and i scared i can't get a conclusion in the end as well.

男人女人

常常听见男人说：女人心海底针， 女人心情的变换就像换衣服一样快。 我想后者相当适合用在自己的角色。 昨天还在闷闷不乐就像阴天，今天突然放晴，哎，我也不懂。 可能是因为我是双子座吧？

一个人过的第五天，如以往地，一个人睡，一个人吃饭，一个人听歌，一个人看戏，一个人做功课，一个人呆在房间。。心情是晴天，没有烈日当空，也没有雷电交加。可能连续几天没睡好的关系吧，整个人好累了。真的好想放下手头上所有的事情，到一个没有人的海滩，躺在长凳上看着蓝蓝的天空，吹着轻轻地海风，好好地盖上眼皮，用心体会大自然的悠闲。

有时候我回想如果我是个男的，那有多好。为什么？男生可以做一些女生想做又不敢做的。但是我的想法被友人推翻了， 她说女生也有身为女生的特权，那是男生想要都没有的。 或许她说的未尝没有道理，但是我还是认为男生都是可以很潇洒地，果断地处理一些事情。身为女生的我想说，男生如果劈腿，最多就被嘲是花心，负心人等等的，但是如果是女生劈腿，事情就又不一样的说法了，女生会被判死刑或终生监邢。

男生口花花是有情趣，幽默感；女生口花花是水性杨花，到处留情。 男生告白失败还是感情告吹，下一个会更好；女生失恋，伤心绝食，要生要死，非君不嫁。

以前听过梅艳芳的《《下辈子别再做女人》》

女人　我亲爱的姐妹们 你经过千山万山之后　得到了怎样的男人辛苦了

女人　疗伤是你的本能 与其在回忆之中心疼　还不如早一些清除伤痕

下辈子别再做女人　我们这一生苦的很

别为了一个吻　你也肯　去爱上某一个负心人

下辈子别再做女人　快乐的时间少的很

在爱情中打滚　谁是你最后的爱人

像我这样的女生，只想做个普普通通，简简单单，有人疼爱的小女人。 我会都听他的，一切让他来做决定。但是，我还要等多久才可以当个小女人？

如果下辈子让你来选择，你想当男人还是女人呢？

司机与乘客

第四天，一个人过的星期一。 今天起身的时候还很有冲劲的对自己说，快乐是自己选择的，暂时不要再胡思乱想了。今天要为自己而过，刚开始还过的蛮不错的，都在专注做我的公主网站。不过，时间慢慢的过去，我又会因为寂寞又在想念他了。
想起他问我的，到底是什么意识呢？我想他不会这么花心思来考我吧？但是他一定不会懂他这么问会让我有很多想法。他的问题还在我的脑海打转，把我的心情搞砸了。

怪我太傻了，太优柔寡断，总是不能下决心。玩过好多次心理测验，都说是因为我太缺安全感而迟迟未能拥有另一半。试问，有那个女人想受伤害，不要对方是全心全意对自己的。我只是想上车前确定车子是要去我的目的地。 上错了两次车，我学会了要看清楚司机是对的人，因为已经害怕了，害怕当我很安心地等待开往目的地的途中，被赶下车。

在一个新环境，从新站起来是需要时间，我懂。当你等待下一辆车到前，你可能会遇见其他的轿车。在你还不清楚属于你的车子时，你可能会跟司机互动，如果互动时都没有明确的指示，那就可能会误导你上车。当你以为眼前的车子是可以让你前往目的地时候，司机迟迟都不开车，以为是司机还没填汽油还是引擎还没开动，所以车子还是原地不动。 没关系，你说你可以等，因为你以为反正都是会到目的地，迟到还是早到真的都没关系。

可悲的是，那都是你的想法，事情可能不像你想的这样。 因为可能司机还在等待遇见你之前，下车了的乘客，等待那位乘客会追上来，继续她的旅程。司机不确定那位乘客是否会回心转意，也不知道是应该把你请下车继续等待那位乘客，还是放弃等待的机会把车子开往下一站。

这时候的你应该怎么办呢？自行下车还是等司机请下车？